As you guys know, I am a superb procrastinator! This morning however, I realized how truly terrible I am at procrastinating. I have about 20 projects that I need to deal with currently. School, christmas presents, personal projects. I just need to suck it up and do them all! So hopefully you guys will see some new cool projects posted up here soon!

  Sorry for the radio silence on this end. This past weekend was my little man's second birthday! My grandmother (his great grandmother) came in on wednesday and we got to spend the whole lovely weekend with her. She left early this morning much to the dismay of both my son and I.
  We had a lovely birthday party with my family and two of my close girlfriends. My lil guy was absolutely in love with having everyone's attention on him and getting a drum set, a remote control car and all sorts of other goodies (although let's be honest, grandpa was not so excited about the drum set).
  School is starting to drain me, Lord knows I'm ready for fall break to get here. But I am excited with how things are going.
  In regards to what's going on in my life?
     Drinking: Dandelion Root Tea
     Watching: Gilmore Girls
     Preparing: Greeting Cards & Laundry

  For me movies have always been very exciting. I love the thrill of being pulled into a moment by great music, wonderful actors, and really cool costumes. However, some movies  have a stronger pull to me than others. Some of these include, Moulin Rouge, August Rush, The Devil Wears Prada, and as of today, Words and Pictures.

  No, I am not being paid to say good things about this film, I'm just crazy about it! Not only is it super cute, it has actual substance to it! You can learn things about art and about words while watching a silly yet deep film! Good lord I can't get over it! lol. I guess it's just fun for me to see films about people who are actually passionate. Passion is so far gone in this society. We are drones who are constantly hooked up to our machines and are constantly in the information age, streaming crap into our brains. Instead of sitting on the grass and reading a really good book, we are texting. Instead of studying our surroundings and drawing incredible things based upon our feelings, we are tweeting and fighting cowards wars over the internet.

  Terribly sorry for the rant that turned into lol. My thought process is fantastic at switching and changing and working it's own weird ways.

  A day when I don't have classes is simply a magnificent day. Instead of using the whole day to rush around and get things ready, I instead have time to do some cleaning, hang out with my mini man, and work on my art. Currently I'm working on some drawings I have due for homework tomorrow (ok, TOTALLY not procrastination, just left my big paper in the studio :/ ). 

  I myself have NEVER been a morning person. I would much rather sleep in and stay up late than get up with the sun. But since my mini man has come into the world, I've been forced to get up earlier and earlier. There's no question, this kiddo is definitely a morning person (at least until he hits puberty).
 
  I do have to say, mornings can be super fantastic. I find that I am more inspired to create in the morning than in the evening. Which is awful cause I never want to get up early enough to create.
  The morning light and coolness i s always very refreshing of rme and I just can't even describe how lovely it is...

  It's a bird! It's a plane! No it's....PROCRASTINATION GIRL! Able to avoid projects until mere days before their due date! Forgets papers until hours before their due! Is her super power useful?? Only time will tell!

  So as you might guess I am a PRO at procrastination. I can literally procrastinate at ANYTHING. For instance, today I realized that I had a paper due at midnight...seriously...panicking....Thank God I pulled myself up by my bootstraps and wrote that dang paper in an hour while sitting on my sons floor while he played around me and on me.
 
  Procrastination has always been something that I've struggled with. Even in my personal life, I'll struggle to make plans or get out of the house just cause it's hard for me (although I also think that there's a healthy bit of social anxiety in there for good measure). Whatever I do I have to FORCE myself to do it. Even my art, which depresses me beyond compare. I hate that I have to force myself to do something that feels so natural at some points. But I know if I don't keep doing it I will just stop and never do it again, which would be absolute agony.

  For now I just take things a little bit at a time and try to plan what I can. I try not to stress if I forget something and prioritize things in the best ways I can. I get stressed a lot, but I think I'm getting better...I hope I am anyway.

  Well I'd better head to bed here soon. It's supposed to freeze over tonight (YAY!)! Although, it's supposed to get back up to 80 this week (bleh). For now I am all cozy in my bed in a fantastically funky sweater and ready to head off to sleep. Night guys.

  I think one of my major problems with blogging throughout my life exposed to internet, is that I try to be like others. I LOVE reading other people's blogs and have a few I check nearly every day. I love the way they express themselves and the things they post. But instead of just using these things for inspiration, I feel like I need to be EXACTLY like them. This causes stress and panic and "how will I ever measure up" syndrome. 

  So for a while there I was doing scheduled blog posts that were perfectly on time and organized and planned out and it was all going great...until I forgot to plan a week...then it all fell apart. In this falling apart however, I've realized that I like writing spontaneously for you guys. Giving you a checkup on my art and life and what's going on...
  Well, here's what's going to happen. I'm going to keep things spontaneous. Every once in a while there'll be a nice planned out tutorial or something like it...but my mind does not work in a strictly organized way, it is extremely sporadic and wonderful and that's how my blog should be.
  Since I'm gunna do this you guys won't be hearing from me on a strict schedule. If I get a minute here or there I'll give you an update on what I'm working on or how my life is going, but it's not going to be as it was for those glorious two weeks. Sorry loves, I can't work like that!